I just thought of doing this suddenly. Thinking back, it is closed to three years since I came to Unimas. Other words, I would soon be home for good.

I have countless experiences and these are good ones regardless of what many have to say about this primitive place. I personally know many uni mates who hails from KL just can't wait to graduate and get out of this place. Some of the memories which I would hold dearly to myself though leaving the place would be the two good friends whom I met in uni itself.

It is a classic how we became friends and eventually, good friends. I noticed Jing ever since the first day of class as I thought she is pretty. She was often hanging out with her own company of friends who were all known to be the faculty's pretty girls too. One of them was Hui. There are about 6 of them who constantly went to class together and I envied such a girlfriend-relationship. Despite being in the same course, attending more than 20 credit hours in a week together, we did not talk to each other. We often acknowledge one another with a pleasant smile. Language was a barrier as they spoke Mandarin which I handicapped the most.

Time took place and we sort of got closer as coursemates sharing information and exam tips together. I had no choice. Being the minority, I had to pick up the Mandarin language in order to communicate with the rest. I learnt Mandarin from both Jing and Hui. They constantly corrected my pronounciation and thought me how to speak better.

It was a blessing for me to stumble upon these two girls, I must say. First impression was, they are extremely genuine, helpful and kind. If you needed a foot, they would be willing to go a mile for you. And the best part is, they do not expect anything in return from you. Jing is a Kuchingite local and Hui is a Sibuan. And trust me, my first impression proved me right about these two girls. 

The three of us shared many things in common but in different ways. I do not how to put it but deep down I know that there is this special bond between us that no one could ever understand. At times, we can sort of 'read each other's mind' (yes, to that level of understanding) though we all come from different places and from different family backgrounds.

I have so much good times with them. That, they are the only people whom I look forward to whenever I have to return to campus for the academic semesters. They are my good friends, my counsellor, my sisters, my gossip kaki, my studying partners, my lunch and dinner mates, my housemates... you name it! I owe them so much that they were practically there for me at times when I needed support the most.  

Jing and Hui~


During one of our outings to Lake Park. Jing, myself and Hui.



Our visit to 'Qing San', one of the well-known temples in Kuching during Chinese New Year 2007



Myself, Hui and Jing during the Fac's Dinner earlier this year.



Jing, Hui and myself during Hui's 22nd birthday celebration earlier.

There you go... The two darlings of mine =)

I met up with some primary school friends earlier. We were catching up with old times and people whom we knew since then. Not many of us made it , though. But I have to say the short meeting made my weekend =)

Names like Hazem and Nurul was one of those few which we did not missed. But we recalled many of them, too. I honestly do not think Ibrahim, Desmond and Jo-Lynn changed from 10 years ago but I am not too sure about Hanafi, though. *laughs*

Ibrahim, who is always the enthusiastic one, is actually planning for a gathering in the old school itself and whoever from UPSR batch 1997 are all invited. I am looking forward to that. Seeing Desmond who improved from reading the time leaves me with curiosity about the rest of the Seafieldians junior *LOL*

But still, I cannot accept the fact that I have actually left primary school for almost a decade now. Thanks to all the advancement of technologies which made it possible for us to get in touch after such a long time! Friendster is one of them =) Memories from primary school is just unbelievable!

I seldom do this but my tolerance level has already reached its peak and I just cannot stand such thrash from some "people". It does not mean that if I choose to keep quiet, I am admiting fault. It makes me wonder if she has other better things to do in life than to hog over such little things. I have always made to believe that things are as simple as it is in life. It is only YOU yourself who tend to make things complicated. 

Those around me would know me well enough that I am such a stubborn that I DO NOT, and I mean I DO NOT like people to nose around my own problem and issues. I decide with what I think is correct. Of course, I cannot be satisfying everybody's needs but hell, this is my life and I choose what I want!

Hence, I decide to stand on my own grounds and reply to "her" post. Mind you! If you think you are just posting it for the sake of posting it, you should have been prepared that people KNOWS what and who are you talking about. Although "she" did not mention my name or said who is it she was writing, it is clear that she's talking about me. And I HATE such hypocrites. If you have anything, just tell it to my face and not by doing things behind my back.

I have said earlier that I have been tolerating and was patient with all "her" nonsense as everybody around me had been telling me that "she" had been talking behind of my back for a long long time already. But I chose to ignore.

Here my reply goes: (BTW, I am quoting what "she" posted exactly. Sorry for the flawed english. Kindly forgive "her" for "her" bad command of English) *LOLs*

"Friends, what is the actual meaning of that?"
"Is it the friendship will over when it doesn't mean any value?"
"Maybe... I can't understand it"
"sigh... we treat them with full of heart, but poorly.."
"The outcome show that we wrong"
"They will only treat you like invisible"
"They won't think and appreciate the friendship no matter how much you lend out your hand"
"How much you appreciate the memory"
"I really don't know what am I doing now"
"Idiot? Maybe I am...."

Oh well, in case "you" were wondering, friends do not nose around your problems. Friends support, friends listen and friends do not judge. All a friend does is just to make sure that their friends are happy. Friends do not back stab and friends tell the truth. Friends are true and friends are concern. Friends do not expect for any return. Friends will accept you for who you are.

Friendship means by not talking you still remain friends. Despite how long you are not caught up in a conversation, friends will remain friends. You do not need to talk 24/7 to make sure that you are friends. You only need to be there when you need to. Friends do not 'ge po' and tell the rest of the world what is going on with you.

I truthfully do not think "you" understand the meaning of a true friendship. I feel very sorry for "you".

There is no right or wrong in anything. It is just a difference in perception. Like said, friends do not expect for anything in return. "You" are clearly expecting something in return from me for treating me 'nice' earlier.

If I would not have appreciate what we had, I would not have given chances. It is apparent that "you" do not know and understand me at all. Sadly, I am certain, there will not be any "we" anymore.

If "you" think that "you" are such an idiot, my advice is, do not torture yourself. Life is short. Live it to the fullest. I am sure "you" have aniticipated such consequences since "you" have done this. Truthfully, I DO NOT think you know how I define friendship as well. And I am quite furious with what "you" have done.

In some ways, I feel VERY grateful with my friends (and I am not sacarstic here) who can accept me for who I am and know me for the one I am. I do not need quantity in friends but I am sure I have a lot of quality friends. Thank you all!!!